Two weeks ago, the support groups in our company (Finance, IT, HR and Purchasing) had a Cape Cod Lobster Boil at our Finance Controller's backyard. A lobster boil is basically a huge pot where you drop in lobsters, crabs, shrimp, sausages, potatoes, corn and all kinds of seasonings. The house was beautiful, the company great, the food scrumptious! Here are some pictures
We had a great time feasting, chatting and laughing. I had a waldorf salad, lobster, half of a crab and a corn on the cob. After lunch we played bocce ball. Our team lost, but for consolation prizes for everyone, we got to bring home a scarecrow.
The following day, Saturday, I woke up to a nasty stomach pain. I realized I had diarrhea, but a couple of trips to the bathroom the pain was still there. I'm pretty sure I got a case of food poisoning. Aside from feeling crappy (pardon the pun), I was so bummed out because it rendered most of my weekend useless. I missed my stepson's soccer game, a friend's birthday lunch, and some pre-scheduled shopping trips.
Of course I kicked myself about this. I knew I wasn't supposed to eat anything raw, which I didn't but I didn't think seafood won't hurt me. I enjoyed the lobster so much I even partook of the head and all the juice!
Waking up on Sunday with the pain still there, albeit less pronounced, I started to worry about my baby. What if I'm passing on the bad stuff to him? I start to panic and cry and decide to go to the emergency room, but my husband reassures me that the baby is not being harmed. I'm only passing good nutrients to him. I try to stay positive and was additionally reassured of his continuous kicking, but I can't help but worry. I don't think I've been this sick from food this long in the past.
In my delirious stupor of combined worry, pain and angst, I suddenly thought of the song "I'd Give My Life For You" from the musical Miss Saigon. I used to love to sing that all the time (more than "Sun and Moon"). This time however, the song took on an entirely different meaning for me. I found myself praying to God that if anything happens, to spare my boy and take me instead. This might be overly dramatic, but, this was such a revelation to me! I have never been this unselfish in my life and I haven't even met this boy. At that point, though, I swore with all certainty that I'd give my life for him.You will be who you want to be
You, can choose whatever heaven grants
As long as you can have your chance
I swear i'll give my life for you